My Dark Dominion

Weird.. I know. But what to do, this was on my mind and I wanted this to be one of those rare times that I let something out for once.

date
-noun
An appointment or engagement, especially a social one with a member of the opposite sex that one likes.

As you may already know, I keep on sulking on girl after girl day after day, maybe it’s a symptom of being single for too long, don’t know. Well, this is what’s really happening, I know a lot of people (obviously of the opposite sex) that know a little piece about my oh-so complex life. And I don’t mind that, being as single as I am. That is upto as much as I can do right now. Thing is, these past few days, maybe something happened, maybe I started to realise that all my nakamas (comrades) have started to find/found their partner that will be with them through good and bad times altogether. Thing is, I don’t have one particular one to release all my happiness and sorrow towards, and I don’t have one particular person that will throw them right back at me and put some sense into this thick skull of mine and vice versa. Instead of one particular person I have made so many people the victims of my disability to decide or to be decided. I keep them pretty to close to my heart as all know a little piece of me and my pain and vice versa

But I’ve started to feel, that wasn’t enough, I wanted to tell someone every single detail about my life, let them know me inside out, trust them wholeheartedly, and I wanted all that with someone that would do the same. I wanted someone that was more commonly known as a “girlfriend”. Eventhough I believe trust is a very important expect in a relationship, don’t worry, it isn’t going to be JUST that, I want my girlfriend to feel… awesome around me. I want her to feel, I want her to KNOW that she’s the luckiest girl in the world. I want her to know that she’s being loved beyond measure, and that I would be there when she needs me, and back away if she would want me to at times. But at this point, I haven’t had anyone that I could/would share those feelings with. Yeah that’s right, my dear readers, I have never, ever, in my life had a girlfriend “^_^ It makes me think… Will I always be like this? Eternally Single?

At first, I didn’t mind this. To be honest, I was proud to be single ^_^ always going “Hahaha. I’m single and you’re not =P Tough luck brotha”. But now, I started to feel dead inside, keeping in all these troubles. Letting them pass by me one after the other, and keeping them hidden and buried behind the deepest and darkest nerve in my brain. With me changing to an all-guy school and all, maybe this is a phase I’m going through and bound to get over with =^_^= Who knows?

Well, because of my sudden need to share “stuff” with another person, and also because this would be my first time doing so, I seeked advice from my fellow friends. If it weren’t for the them, I would still be very much misunderstood. Maybe the reason I haven’t got a girlfriend so far is because I am afraid to do so… I don’t want to have any regrets of losing her or making the wrong decision. Maybe that’s just it. =/

My dear friends, Arkturus-bro, Ainthu-sis and Thuvey-chan helped me to see what’s right and what’s not. Told me the pros and cons, and all the expects that is to be considered. And if it weren’t for them, I wouldn’t have come to the conclusion that I have now. I have decided to wait… yeah, once again, wait some more.. as long as it takes. Till I find the right person, at the right time. Like a wise boy once said:

“Need is the Seed, Time is the Rain and Girlfriend is the crop.”

-Arkturus ( )

Now Playing : All At Once – The Fray

“Maybe you want her, maybe you need her
Maybe you’ve started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it, maybe you need it
Maybe it’s all you’re running from
Perfection will not come”

You ALL do know the mid-term holidays are right around the corner and you are looking forward to it no matter how boring it may be. Well, I for one, am going to plan out most of the things I am going to do =D And I have a wide range of things I can choose from. As I may or may not have already bragged about it, my “mom” has given me permisson to do ANYTHING I want, for as LONG as I want during the holidays. [excluding sex, but that's whole new story right?] And you know why? =^_^= It’s because *drum roll* I got A+ in EVERY single exam I did so far, awesome eh? =D [Yeah, I haven't got my Dhivehi and Islam results yet ]

Holidays? I decided I am gonna spend the first few days as lazily as possible by watching anime/movies/series as much as I’ve got. And the rest of ‘em by reading manga. Pretty boring, I know. But I learnt that time flies a lot while doing that (^_^), And after I’m done with all that, I am gonna sleep rest of the days of / bring some friends over, few at a time and so on. Moreover, I am still wondering whether all that will last nine whole days or I will have to sit around doing nothing whatsoever like the rest of ‘em. [Can you recommend some things I can do if it comes to that ]

Speaking of bringing a few friends over, you know that I am now an accursed prefect right? Well, because of that, mom has asked me to choose between bringing over 10-12 friends [girls included ] over to my place one evening OR attend a dinner of family at some fancy restaurant… I cant seem to choose. And you should know, according to the 13 years worth of knowledge of mom that I’ve got, I don’t think mom has got much of a tolerence at seeing teenagers making-out “^_^ I was thinking, Why dont you all help me decide what to do? [Give me your comments on this =D]

Well, I should be going now, more soon =)

I know I haven’t posted for a pretty long time now, and I apologize for that “^_^ Unfortunately, I have been pretty busy and nothing “awesome” happened these past few days =/ And so, I couldn’t post up anything. Curse me and my boring life, eh? Well, moving on … Last week, my mom and my aunt flew off to Bangkok for medical reasons as my aunt was a little bit too sick. Therefore I, my dad and my cursed little sister were left to look after each other and our house. As we were completely hopeless at doing any of those things, dad sent us to our grandmother’s place. Pretty boring place I must say, excluding the heartfelt love and labor they gave for us, they had no internet and a computer that worked half the time >_< If it weren’t for the Get Backers episodes Arky had given me, I would be dead right now. And what murdered me would be … Boredom O_O and as awesome as I am, I lived through.

During that week, I did the biggest and most idiotic thing any red-blooded awesome male could do. I became a god-forsaken prefect. My mom wanted me to become one, so as much of a suck-up I am to my mom, I did it >_< Now I look like some retard who thinks wearing all white (including his god-damned trousers) is the new fashion in town, who ALSO looks like the main attraction of nerdsville. And oh yeah, the annoying hairstyle I’ve got right now is pretty sucky-looking as well, I look like wanna-be Mafia person who wears a boatload of gel on his head. But don’t you worry, I have my own reasoning for this, it’s because: I have really awesome and long hair now =D And it is SO awesome that the school won’t allow it >_< So I’m using the Super-Gel-Mafia-Wanna-Be Look to camouflage my awesome hair. I’m warning you, if you see me in uniform, please don’t judge me by my looks. Always remember that this is STILL the awesome Dhanish Athif you’ve always known me as =^_^= and yeah, if you see me OUT of school these days, you’ll easily notice that I look really “hot”

And during the weekends I went to a wedding of a family friend’s OF a friend’s which was pretty awesome as well. The food was great. So was the place. Sadly I was wearing a red shirt and it seems that co-incidentally the color theme of the wedding was RED as well. So, all the family and close relatives were ALL wearing red, and as you know, “friends at the gathering” rarely give a damn about the color-code. But I, of all people, was wearing bright red which was kind of dumb. We went back home kinda early, as the only people I knew from the place were just me and the person I went with. So we talked about all things talkable and left.

Moreover, the following day, I went to Ifu (The Naruto Shipuuden Master)’s Birthday party, with Arky, Shine-a, Mux and Yaths. It was fun, we talked and enjoyed the band that was playing at the party. And guess what … I ate so much that can’t even recollect the number of times I ate there =D Though I’m guessing it was about 2-4 times. And also me and Arky each stole a piece of Ifu’s cake before we left as it was DELICIOUS and chocolaty. But to go there, I had to pay a price. Dhimsha (my cursed little sister) didn’t allow me to go as I went the previous day as well … Damn her for that and more. She MADE me bribe her by making a blog for her and PAYING her 10/- Rufiyaa And just because I was FIFTEEN minutes late to come back, Dhimsha called and complained to Dad for more than TWENTY times, which made Dad angry at me >_< which was so totally irritating and annoying. Like Arky preferably said “Dhimsha is THE Devil” Well it wasn’t that bad; I had a reasonably fun time.

Well, that’s all for now. Will write more soon (I promise)

Thanks for reading. I’d be awesome if you care to comment =^_^=